so here i am not being able to sleep the thoughts of what i shoved down my throat seem to replay over and over in m head i want to stop but i cant im addicted to this feeling im addicted to being thin. i let loose for 3 days and now i have this guilt hanging over my head it consumes my every thought my every second. but i need her i need ana in my life she makes me stronger and better she makes me thin and beautiful.. so thin that no one wants to hurt me so fragile, so light, she is my protection...

i can no longer look at myself in the mirror naked i am ashmamed of what i am all that fat that hangs off me how can anyone possibly want you like this? i need to do something quick i cannot stand the sight of my self anymore

i dont need food to survie i am stronger then food i control what goes in my body i decide my own fate i refuse to be a fat pig.. i need to start now and i WILL overcome this

i know its alot of work but i can do this... i am strong...